day 25 of 2012

cross-posting this from my 365 project because this is what’s on my heart & i wanted to share it with those who read my blog over here. (and don’t read my x9999 blogs!)

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it’s no longer about expectations for what is to come. good-bye to that. i’m looking forward to this moment, right now.

carpe diem at its find. live life to its fullest.

go. do. be.

So never worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own — Matthew 6:24

i talk so much about living and thriving on this blog and in my journal. but it’s real. i’m keepin’ it real here. i’m not just immersing myself in busyness so i can talk and flaunt how awesome i am at multi-tasking and being all this responsible hot-shot or something. because if i was doing all this on my own strength, i would just be a puddle of nothingness on my floor right now, crying my eyes out.

or like, how was i able to get past breaking up with my ex last semester and taking the rest of my life into stride? not my own strength for sure. because in Him I am made new, restored and whole again. there’s no fear or worry or intimidation. of course i had to process everything that happened, but now i live in no regrets.

there’s no more “looking back into the past” because i only have ONE life to live. and that’s this life now. so in this season of life, i’m learning to embrace the challenges thrown at me and to risk it all, not looking back but going forward because i know i’m walking in the path that God has set for me.

a journey

there are so many thoughts in my head right now
i can’t pick or choose which ones to express
so here is a freeverse poem
here it goes !

life is a big fat journey
where i walk on this narrow road
towards a shining light
sometimes i’m crawling in the dark,
or jumping from cliff to cliff.
there are times when the mountain is so steep that i want to jump off into the abyss
or sometimes i just
pass out right there on the path

or off the path i wander
into rabbit holes
and dark doorways disguised as rainbows & sunshine

but sometime, some way
i stumble back onto the narrow road
and trudge on

because there’s that itch in me to reach the light
the light motivates me
that walking this road?
i’m not just walking it
i’m THRIVING on in
living vivaciously as i
leap / jump / soar

in this season of life,
i am SOARING through clouds
fearless through storms
and finding green pastures
among the rocky trail.

unafraid.
unashamed.

inspirational things with a dash of promotion

i am known as the “social media machine, as named by blane young. i don’t know about machine, but i do love sharing with my friends, especially on Facebook. sometimes i do it so much that the last link on people’s wall .. are all from me. so i’ve tried to tone myself down (also since i haven’t been on the computer 24-7 anymore), but i’ve been finding some treasures on tumblr recently and wanted to share with the blogsphere.

on the promotional end, i’m doing this 365 project as a New Year’s resolution sorta thing on my tumblr. it’s a mixture between daily updates and a note of thanksgiving.

(excited for Once Upon a Time TOMORROW!)

possible room decor

(new york, new york by dunny)

(great wall, china)

& overcome them

three am musings

why am i awake
when i could be dreaming, but
here i am

reading
discovering
tumblr-ing
being inspired
finding friends’ blogs that show a glimpse of who they are,

inside behind the facebook wall posts
and the ‘about me’s”‘
the inner artist
or writer
but are they really friends?
or just people of the past,

a relationship that is hard to rekindle?
all questions
&
no answers
just whispers in the breeze
of something.

maybe sleep will
bring
an answer.

dream big: what to do if there was no limitations on you could do?

I was asked this question yesterday.

What would you do if you weren’t restrained by money, time, people? What would your dreams be if you could do anything in the world?

I’ve answered this question in another form during a small group icebreaker before. But I gave a trivial answer, something along the lines of  I wanna travel to ____ number of places, etc. But this instance needed a more, outlandish if you could call it that .. or visionary answer. It’s funny how the answer came right to my mind, that there was NO hesitation, but that it came right out of my mouth. It’s funny because now I realize how much these limitations, these material things are holding me back from my true desires. But that is a musing for another blog post.

I wanted to document that dream here, so I won’t be able to dismiss it as a passing desire, but have it stare in front of me, waiting for the day I can come back and write about how dreams turn into reality.

So my dream? What is it exactly?

to be in southeast asia working with girls enslaved in human trafficking, preferable in the aftercare process. using art therapy and skills training i want to be able to empower them & show them hope. that their lives aren’t defined by what happened to them, but by what they will do now that they are in reach of purpose and a life ahead. 

to bring light into the dark places,
that is what i desire to do.